So, I really have never blogged in my life and I used to suck at keeping a diary as a little girl. It usually always turned into what I wanted my life to look like and not what it really did. Well, that and the constant trials and tribulation of a young girl....I hate so and so....so and so really pissed me off today.....I cannot believe that so and so likes so and so, doesn't he know that I LOVE HIM? This is about how my diary as a child reads. Not much has changed really! Life seems to be a series of cyclical events. From the day you realize that you have choices all the way to the day you die!
I am in a place right now where I am trying to break that cycle. I call it the three month cycle. Everything in life will be going great for about three months and then BAM something happens to throw everything off course. That is pretty much how my life has been since I have been of legal age!
I am in a place right now where my choices are starting to change. The path that I am wanting to take is not the same path that I have followed in the past. I am in the process of trying to blend my life with someone else. I am getting married and I have never been married before. It is exciting and scary at the same time. Marriage is a different beast in the relationship spectrum. I have had several long term relationships but nothing close to this. We have known each other for what seems like forever and I know that this man is the one that I am supposed to marry. Do we have issues? OF COURSE! We have issues like everyone else. There is a Jack Johnson song that says "without you I'd be broken, but I'd rather be broke down with you by my side"! I think that is the feeling that both of us have for each other.
I cannot wait to start this new life with a husband and someone for my boys to look up to. I am not really sure why I am starting this blog. Maybe it is just for me. Maybe it will become a place where I can express my hopes and dreams, wants and needs and trials and tribulations of life. Who knows? Maybe it will be a place for me to bounce idea's around or write about absolutely nothing. Guess we'll have to wait and see.
